Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Week 7

Best Friends

I've been asked this a couple times before and after us getting married. Oh, the question varies, but it usually just means: "Are you guys best friends?".

I have to think about this really hard each time. Even though I always come up with the same answer. "No, we're not." which shocks people. understandably so.

I just can't bring myself to call Craig my best friend. To me, a best friend is someone you can tell all your secrets to, you're not afraid of what they think of you, and you can count on them to be around for you when your at your absolute worst.

I tell Craig about 95% of everything, there's just some things he really doesn't need to know. I may not be afraid of what he thinks of me, but you better believe I'm being the best me so he doesn't have to see my worst. Why would I want that? Why would I want him to see that? I don't want my husband (still ew) to realize he married a potentially crazy person (hehehe.. not thaaaat crazy). And I reapply makeup after work, don't let him see me without makeup until bedtime or wake up, don't eat as much as I want (which is really for the better), all so I can not look at my absolute worst. I think the day I stop doing all that for him is the day we've lost our romance and now we're just roommates.

Don't worry! I express most of my feelings, but I've learned to sensor so we can have a peaceful relationship. Not one with lots of drama and crazy-face stuff.

But with all of that in mind... I don't do things with my best friend that I would absolutely do with Craig. I don't carry on a sexual relationship with my best friend (sorry puppy!;p lol), I can fall asleep without my best friend laying next to me-I have a horrible time without Craig, and I don't share money or my opinion on what we should do with our money with my best friend. I'd be absolutely stupid not to do it with Craig. though, i will buy stuff for my best friend, but I'm not going to open a personal bank account with my best friend... definitely a business bank account!! hehehe.

He considers me his best friend, but it's a little different. He doesn't have his previous best friends around us anymore, and they hardly talk. He has good friends here, but they aren't best friends. I hope it changes. That there's someone that he can hang out with at any time and he doesn't get sick of them after a while... Of course, he's a dude, so he can blow off the "sick of them" easier than I can. But I wish it was better for him.

Anyway! I love him so much, but he's not my best friend.

Week 6

OOOOPS! missed Week 6! We got our bed! I have pics! coming later!

Week 5

Babies on the Brain

Yes and No (to your question you haven't said out loud yet).

This week.. 2 babies were born in my family. It's scary, happy for them, weird, and I guess a little neat. It definitely makes me think.

One thing I find myself doing is being super super freaked out for them. Since I'm at the age of babies... at least in my family. Lets see... my mom would have had Jason and I already.. or at least be preggers with me. Julie had Brandon (or been preggers). My cousin is... 20? and she just had hers Wednesday morning. And I'm pretty sure everyone else would have been preggers by now.

I'm just glad Craig and I are way too selfish to want to try now. I guess, we're not that selfish since most of the things we have planned before kids, is to make their life better after we have them. Build a home, start my own business, maybe invest in some other businesses, learn and invest in stocks, save money... buy new cars (at least 1 new now, so that it's old and we won't be sadface when it gets dirty later. haha). So, we're semi to mostly selfish!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Between Week 4 & 5

This was so funny to me that I had to share it.

Someone asked me if I had the "newlywed glow" at work (we work in different offices) and I replied with:

"no, public happiness makes me uncomfortable"

which is true. I don't like the comments of "awww" and "how cute!" "newlyweds!" or the advice of what to look for in our marriage. I mean there is a lot of great advice out there.. for instance what my grandpa told us at our wedding. Which I can't remember the exact words, but it pretty much meant, marriage is hard work.

What I don't like is the "ohh, just you wait, you guys will hate each other" or the "just wait until he sees some hot young thing, you'll be dumped in a heartbeat" I don't know who they are married to, but it's definitely not to my (ew) husband (ew). Good thing he's not around when this happens because then I'd have to speak up and start a fight. Without him around I can just remind myself that they're miserable, and they just want someone else to bask in their misery too. and then I don't have to get in a fight with them about how they're miserable. Because usually it's in public.

Anyway, there's no "married glow" because we're just.. us. And we like that. Maybe later I'll be frustrated that I didn't soak up all the attention, but by that point, maybe it'd be time for a renewing of vows with our kids or something, then we can be as cutesy as we want.

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Month 1

Week 4

Still feels like dating!!! Nothing feels changed. We've been married officially for 30 days. over the course of 30 days.... We just feel like normal. Our world hasn't been shifted. We don't feel this special link to each other that you just can't get while dating. I just don't feel it. Even when we fought while dating (it got rarer and rarer as we got older), we still didn't think of the break-up option. We knew that wasn't even a possibility. I mean, I feel bad that I didn't have a more giving or prosperous family to help me like his family did so we could be rolling in dough, but we both don't care. My family is what they are. Insane, crazy, looney, and completely involved in each other's lives. His family is disciplined, older, small, and completely involved in each other's lives. I couldn't ask for anything better.

Which reminds me, I was going to get a degree in something, but we decided that the only thing that could help me be a better mom would be to take some early education classes. I won't take them, though I may take some photography classes. But anything I quit my job to go do, is not going to help me be a stay at home mom. I won't be working at a 9-5 job, bringing in a lot of money. I will find other things to do so I can help bring in some cash for Craig and I and whatever kids we have. But it was really important to me to be a stay-at-home mom more than anything else. So, I won't even consider getting a degree until after my kids are in college too. And by then... what jobs could I get afterwards when I'm all crusty and old??

Anyway. I wanted to post some pictures for our three week project... but it's now moved to 3 weeks and a couple days. We have to return our original bedding because it wasn't what the picture showed. And then we bought different sheets because the other sheets we got only work with the original duvet set.

But our bed is epic! I LOVE it!!! absolutely love love love it. It's huge, and imposing, and comfy! aww, so nice :D. I've been sleeping all through the night. I only had to crack my back the first night. It's so great. Love to sit on there and watch shows... or read... or... just lay there. lol. :D

Craig didn't like it at first.. but Rogue comes up more often now. She loves her heights! And since our bed is waist high, she loves it. She can sit at the head or in the middle and Isis has no clue she's up there. Isis jumps better now, not high enough to jump on Rogue's kitchen counter perch, but high enough to jump on the bed frame then up on the bed. So awesome :D

Next weekend I'll post some pictures!!! :D HOPEFULLY! As long as the new bedding works. lol. ugggghhh!